How much do you want me to lie to you?

The title above is a question I would ask coworkers, acquaintances, etc.. whenever they wanted my opinion about something. I need this question for the sake of tact because if not you will hear the non sugar coated version that usually results in me saying or doing something stupid. I guess this bugs me because one of these days I would love to voice my opinion without people having a cow.

I know this day is not coming anytime soon as very few people can get away with saying what everybody thinks and doesn’t say or what they think without offending some part of the population. I don’t think have the agency or position to say any of these things and get away with it. The problem is that I will ethically be inclined to believe that honesty is the best policy.

However, even with these beliefs I myself have been guilty of lying by omission to some of the people I am closest with and some that I am still trying to get to know. The only lame excuse I give is thaf what I could tell them they might not take very well at all. Also, I would like to resolve the issue myself so the point becomes moot and their is nothing to tell. I do plan on telling my psychologist but that is only because of doctor, patient confidentiality.

I am curious as to the readers and bloggers out there do you ever feel like you need to lie to people (be it by omission of info or a white lie) because you think they can’t handle the truth? Also after you have told this lie, do you have guilt for months because you lied… Any two cents on this ethical quandary are much appreciated..

Xoxo, the multifaceted nerd

An update on my so called life…

I have not posted in the past couple months because I have finally landed a full time job with benefits (well its seasonal but it sill counts in my mind) . I have my first adult job, and this has been a good and bad thing for me. It has finally giving me the funds to do things to renovate my life and room such as getting a much needed new pair of glasses and a new printer since mine has gone the way of the dinosaurs. The weird thing is I am not used to making a decent wage and still since I am intensely in training and trying to learn my current job, I won’t feel like I have earned it until I am doing at least adequate in my position.

Another weird thing is that I am currently for the first time ever making more than my s.o. even with the money that gets taken out of my check for taxes, etc.  I think this among my weird schedule for work has caused some strife among us. ( I mean I know the s.o. is proud of me but I think a small part of him is jealous, whether he wants to admit it or not)  My s.o. has this saying that he obviously stole that “we both can’t be going crazy at the same time”.  I think that is what is happening currently.

Lets just say his workplace and family life has made his current life very fragile to the point where I am grateful on the days that he will actually eat or get a good days rest. And in my case our training has been accelerated and I will be started doing my job way sooner than expected, so this on top of medical stuff and stuff I know I should have done months ago is wigging me out in the words of Buffy. Also I will be starting the job at a new location but the same city, so I am worried about driving  there since I am sort of a new driver and it takes me a couple times of practicing driving to a place before I can actually do it. It weird I know but currently it is what works me tell I can make the time to conquer driving around this city and on the freeway, etc.

For me I think I just have too much going on or it feels like and in the word of a friend of mine, his and my current theme for this year “adulting sucks”.  Even if I am going at my own pace to be honest, and I am beginning to feel like Carrie a bit in the first couple seasons of sex and the city like I am barely living a life in the first place. Are their any other people out there in the blogsphere who are also feeling this about their own life?