Well, remember the friend I was supposed to hang out with, who I was worried I have to answer questions about my life. Well, that was a bust this friend of mine never called me back or texted or facebook messaged or anything. I never even got a response that was a lame old excuse and obviously a lie. I would have preferred a lie over radio silence at this point. Then things get weird the day after this person blew me off I get invited to their birthday party. If that is not sending mixed messages, I don’t know what is. Their is a good chance I might not be able to make it since I am broke anyway (and the place this person picked is oh so expensive), and there will be enough people there that I will want to hide in a corner. I like interacting with people on an individual level, but ten to fifteen people will make me want to curl up in a ball.
Their is a good chance I will just treat this person to coffee since I can afford that, in lieu of spending too much money on a dinner with people I hardly know. Part, of me doesn’t even want to do that because they have flaked on me so many times over this past year. Oddly, have the reason I suggest coffee last time was to see if they would show up before I could commit to food or not in the first place. I know it sounds like I am dating this person, but this friendship has been in a precarious position since August.
I feel like this friendship is at a fork in the road and I am deciding whether or not to go left or right. Actually, truth be told my life is beginning to feel that way where it has been a series of little disappointments be it in hanging out with certain people, or going through the laborious process of job hunting and interviews. I think I just want a win, I want something to pull through, and work out for me for once. I don’t care if its a person or an employment opportunity I am not picky. I am just curious if any of my other readers, are going through a similar malaise in which they are going through disappointments with the series of unfortunate events happening in their lives?