Hot chicken sandwiches, the fair weathered friends of food

So when it comes to friendships, I tend to be a masochist, and am usually the one making all the effort some of the time. With these people I usually throw my hands up in ire or try to forget about them. To me these people are like hot chicken sandwiches from chick fil-a taste good at first and clear your sinuses but are kicking your ass with their heat tell you go to bed.

The friends that are there for you and try to main contact these are the reliable foods that you can always depend on such as oatmeal, sandwiches, angry orchard cider, etc. You know they will be there if you ever need to contact them.

The reason for this food related ramble is because I tried to make contact with a hot chicken sandwich only to be an ignored after thought once again. I know as an adult friends of people you try to make friends with come and go, but this is just made harder with self isolation and covid since last March.

Honestly, making friends as an adult is hard enough for a socially awkward introvert as me, throw in covid where more people are depressed and lonely than ever and the odds of taking the risk to chat with someone on this trying time goes down.

Has anyone else been dealing with this sort of trying to make friends or maintain them during covid?

Xoxo, the multifaceted nerd

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Split into two

I thought 2021 was supposed to be easier. I was wrong on that front. Am still trying to get my personal life and health together.

The health part is getting easier, got an iud, yeah even with the periods and weeks of pain ahead, fun. Because I need physical pain to add all the emotional and stress from the past year, that I still need to see a couple therapists about.

The bf and I are still working through a dead bedroom and a rut. We are communicating fine but the passion is just lacking. To top it I still have no idea how I feel about my ex/friend?. My bf made the snarky yet accurate comment if we were ever really friends. Hell if I know…….

Also the ex is poly and married so their is that. Me and emotionally unavaible men, oh what a combo. I just wish I knew what I was doing or where I was going… Also, I dont know how to answer the many questions I have about things lately. Maybe when the bf and I reconnect he will go back to being an after thought because it feels like that is all I am like with him or not a thought at all… Even as a “friend” and am not one of his groupies known as a “psych ranger”, a name that is so one the nose and needs to be changed to something else.

Xoxo, the multifaceted nerd