Well, I have decided finally to give the hermit lifestyle a temporary break. I asked a friend who I have not seen in months to hang out. The reason it has been hold is because oddly this friend of mine has been depressed. But now the tables have turned and I am in a funk. Also, I am worried when he asks me how my life is going how I am going to answer that question without having a nuclear meltdown resulting in tears and anger.
Well, I guess I should elaborate on how my life has been going, I am going broke trying to pay for broken car struts, I am working my ass off to get more hours at my part time job, and I am not sure if I will see my s.o. any time too soon since his own work place has turned into the titanic with everybody jumping ship. Also, too add insult to injury my parents since they have been traveling so much have been going into major budgeting mode for the rest of the year.
Also, all this stress about finances is not helping my health or my stress eating. I have been taking sleeping pills more often since I have been too stressed to get a good nights sleep, my abs have been in pain more often, and I doubt eating the crap I have been eating will not thrill my GP or nutritionist when I see them next year. I was supposed to see them well now, but between work, needing new glasses and gaining almost 10 pounds back that I had lost last March, even I don’t think this a good idea. Also, I don’t think my ego could take any more scolding or lectures at this point.
Right now, it just feels like I am trying to get my s—- together which feels impossible even in the central valley while on the full time job hunt, when all I seem to get are rejection emails, calls, etc. Also, I still haven’t figured out what career I would like to pursue I have narrowed down the list to 40 job titles that I would probably have to go back to school for well all of them. So, I guess that is something in my life in which I have made some progress. It just feels lately like I am barely getting by. So, I am curious to all my readers have you ever had one of those days, weeks, months, where it feels like you won’t ever catch a break? Also, if you have gone through this, any tips on how to deal with it in a positive manner would be much appreciated.